Hey.
Been on here a few times, had one of my worst ever poker years. Probably about even on the year, maybe a little up but i'm not at all happy with a lot of things. One, I genuinely do feel I have run bad. I know a lot of people say that but I'm pretty honest with myself (only way to get better) and I do think this. I could go deeper but thats boring. Basically, ive ran bad and made it worse by tilting in various ways. Ive gone away from my game in an effort to 'fit in' with what a lot of people say you should and should not do. I did find a way to win and was successful playing my type of game. Im going back to that (with a few small twists) and to hell if its not 'perfect'. It won me money.
Anyway, in an effort to keep a control over my tilt and discipline im going to keep it public to stop me making big mistakes.
Over last 3 months ive rebulit from £50 - £400 but over this week I have dropped £150. That co-incided with my first jump up to 10nl again in which I ran horribly. And tilted. (Cue embarrassment). So back to what worked and just being patient.
Goals:
* Play 4nl and show a profit.
* Play £2/£3/£5 tournaments. 40 BI rule.
* Play my game and not focus on PokerPoints and BR total.
* Not play 10nl until I hit £450BR and cease to play if dip below £400. (like i intended to. sigh)
* This is real embarrassing and im ashamed of but I want to stop moaning on chat! Seriously, Im an idiot and no one cares! I will honestly say how many times IF i do indeed do this. Im 36 for crying out loud! I need to find another way to vent and then calm down and play properly
* Finally, I would like to reach 1K again. No time frame, just a target.
Comments
Have you read through the Mental Game of Poker or other similar resources on controlling tilt? As you allude to, you're going to achieve the monetary goals in your post so long as you can control this part of your game better.
Nothing wrong with playing your own game either... if we all played by the book then only the rake would win and the game would be very boring. I think it's fair to say that there are people that may query the style of some of the biggest winners on Sky (and other sites)... but I can't imagine they care about their game being slated as they sit there counting their profits!
See you at the tables,
Ducky
And good luck moving to MTT - my thinking is the same and I am toying with making more of an effort to adjust my game for that, probably starting in January. Look forward to reading any recommendations you may make on here for vids, articles, books etc that are helping you transistion across.
Just focus on playing the best tournament you can, making the best decisions possible throughout. If this takes you to the FT and beyond then happy days. Sometimes it won't even get you past the first level, such is the nature of the beast!
Ironically, once you're on a FT they are pretty straightforward, it's getting there that is the hard part.
Good luck with it all!