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Yesterday was not a good day. After extensive tests, it seems that my cancer has now spread and the tumour has grown and is no longer operable.
I see the oncologist next week but the prognosis isn't good. I can receive chemotherapy to reduce the pain and help me to eat but the chances of the cancer going away are slim, bordering on non-existent. This is a sad turnaround from the position before yesterday where the experts were optimistic.
To my poker buddies, we got all the chips in with AA against AK but the flop came KK2. We now have just two cards to hit that single Ace.
I don't know how long I have got. It might be days, it might be weeks, it might be months but however long it is, I intend to live each day to the full and try to enjoy it. I will treat every day left as a bonus and try to fill it with the things that I and my closest loved ones enjoy the most.
I probably won't have another holiday abroad. I probably won't see Sheffield Wednesday win anything (not many will). I probably won't feel the sun on my back again.
Every theatre trip, football match, poker tournament, day out might be my last so I am going to enjoy it.
Obviously my pain will soon be over but it will go on for those closest to me, in particular Helen Ball, Henrietta Ball & Max Ball. Our time together now will be so much more precious and I can put my affairs in order but for them, the pain will continue for some time.
I am grateful to have had such a great life, to have met so many good people along the way and to have a fantastic family to support each other through this period.
Maybe I have completed my primary job in life by helping to give Henri & Max a great start in life and I am so proud of the young adults that they have become. Sadly, I won't get the opportunity to grow old with Helen and watch the kids start their families. I have little doubt that they will both have many happy times ahead.
As time is precious then I cannot say goodbye to everyone individually. Apologies but I will read every post on my facebook threads for as long as I am able and thank you for the memories.
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I don't know what to say, I was unaware of any of this as I don't use Facebook.
So sad, so brave, such dignity.
My greatest wishes go to Ice tiger and wish him all the best.
But Steve if you read this please don't give up. Sadly I have pretty close hand experience of cancer and know that those who do best fight against it and fight against the sort of prognosis you have been given. I have personally met someone who was cancer free 3 years after being given a terminal, 'only weeks to live' prognosis by her cancer 'specialist', she fought against that diagnosis and beat it, using alternative therapies.
My partner and I went to The Oasis of Hope in Mexico 12 years ago for treatment for her cancer. Dr Contreras and his team over there are second to none. In my experience they know so much more than our UK specialists about the treatments available, not just the standard UK 'throw Chemo at everything' approach, but also the 'alternatives' such as natural treatments (apricot kernels, metabolic therapy and things like that) that cannot even be advertised or promoted over here.
If I was diagnosed with cancer the first thing I would do would be to speak to The Oasis of Hope and ask their advice, they may even have links over here now to more open minded doctors (as I said we went there 12 years ago) however the UK is sadly quite strict on it's 'protocols' and UK doctors are not allowed to deviate from those. Google is your friend if you are looking for options.
You might have more chance of hitting that 2 outer if you stack the deck in your favour.
I have had a good life & been lucky to have great friends & family so although we all want to live longer, I shall not go complaining and will be riding every wave like it is my last and fighting all the way.
Best wishes to you and your family. No words can change anything but my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Case Ace one tiiiiiiiime.
I'm in the early stages of planning another fund raising event for McMillan Cancer Support that will hopefully happen towards the end of 2016. The last was my end-to-end walk in 2010. I really hope you're around to see it.
All the best.