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Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey [new update]

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  • edited May 2012
    Hi Pat,

    I've just read your diary from start to finish and feel yhe need to warn you. When i see the phraes, "feeling like a failure" after going on tilt or not fulfilling your goals cash-wise then i worried for you. I could see that you'd have been in a depressed state at different stages of your 'journey'. Not just down but medically depressed. There were lots of signs, believe me.
    You need to reassess what is important to you and introduce balance into your life. Life shouldn't be a poker grind. You need a 'bucket list' of things you want to do and achieve in your life with both short and long term goals. To be honest, your daily life seemed rather sad and disjointed at first with every day being exactly the same. Ask yourself..."What do i remember doing or planning for that gave me a buzz or sense of achievement away from poker. You may well be a good player but the sites are littered with the empty bank accounts of good players making poor decisions. You need a plan and a reward system for yourself. I feel that you need to look at the 'mental side of poker' and how iit affects you. Why not treat yourself to the book of the same name by Jared Tendhlar.
    As a young man, you don't see how much you have to look forward to in your life. take opportunities and don't judge yourself too harshly. Confide in a trusted friend and look to get enjoyment from your life. A few extra pounds here and there doesn't provide a lifetime of happiness.
    This may seem a bit hardball and i was going to explain in a private email but i've decided to tell you openly so that anyone can see. My bother Mark thought he was a failure in life. he said so in some of his writings. In his case, he was looking for God and had not thought he'd achieved that. After being diagnosed with depression he committed suicide 12 years ago. He was a wonderful person with a poor impression of himself.
    So, mate, enjoy life. take the fun from it and  learn from your mistakes but move onward and upward. I wish you well in your studies and your poker. just put the balance into your life.
    All the best
    Steve aka profman15
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    Hi Pat, I've just read your diary from start to finish and feel yhe need to warn you. When i see the phraes, "feeling like a failure" after going on tilt or not fulfilling your goals cash-wise then i worried for you. I could see that you'd have been in a depressed state at different stages of your 'journey'. Not just down but medically depressed. There were lots of signs, believe me. You need to reassess what is important to you and introduce balance into your life. Life shouldn't be a poker grind. You need a 'bucket list' of things you want to do and achieve in your life with both short and long term goals. To be honest, your daily life seemed rather sad and disjointed at first with every day being exactly the same. Ask yourself..."What do i remember doing or planning for that gave me a buzz or sense of achievement away from poker. You may well be a good player but the sites are littered with the empty bank accounts of good players making poor decisions. You need a plan and a reward system for yourself. I feel that you need to look at the 'mental side of poker' and how iit affects you. Why not treat yourself to the book of the same name by Jared Tendhlar. As a young man, you don't see how much you have to look forward to in your life. take opportunities and don't judge yourself too harshly. Confide in a trusted friend and look to get enjoyment from your life. A few extra pounds here and there doesn't provide a lifetime of happiness. This may seem a bit hardball and i was going to explain in a private email but i've decided to tell you openly so that anyone can see. My bother Mark thought he was a failure in life. he said so in some of his writings. In his case, he was looking for God and had not thought he'd achieved that. After being diagnosed with depression he committed suicide 12 years ago. He was a wonderful person with a poor impression of himself. So, mate, enjoy life. take the fun from it and  learn from your mistakes but move onward and upward. I wish you well in your studies and your poker. just put the balance into your life. All the best Steve aka profman15
    Posted by profman15

    Very good post from you once again mate and so sorry for you for the loss of your brother.

    Daz
  • edited May 2012
    I appreciate your personal input Steve, and I can't begin to contemplate how hard it must be to lose a loved one. I feel that my comments are being taken out of proportion, mainly because I'm basing this as a blog about my 'poker journey' and not as a life blog. I do not set myself cash targets, whether that be daily, weekly or even monthly. Nor do I get too disheartened about having losing days.

    As of now, I'm at university studying Business. As well as my studies, I play American Football. Like any student, I socialise with friends and go on frequent nights out. I previously chose to share my blog with one of my flatmates. I fully feel that I have a well balanced life, although I can understand how it may appear to be centered around poker - as this is a Poker blog. I fully intent for Poker to be a means to an end. Once again, thank you for your comments, and I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you continue to follow my progress. Best of luck at the tables.

    --

    Patwalshh
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    As well as my studies, I play American Football.
    Posted by patwalshh
    Wiiiiiiii :D Which team do you support?
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : Wiiiiiiii :D Which team do you support?
    Posted by EvilPingu
    I don't really follow the NFL that much, but if I had to pick it'd be Arizona. How about you?
  • edited May 2012
    Sun is up

    --

    I'm going to make this thread a little bit more like a life blog to make this more diverse. Results from £5.50 DYMs can be tedious I know.. Watched the England game at the pub last night (we played dreadful) and went to a friends BBQ last night afterwards. Free food always goes down well. 

    I've really been motivated with the gym recently. I seem to go through stages where I'll get really good gains, I'm lifting heavier weights, and then I lose motivation and subsequently lose my progress. But with the summer in full swing, it's a nice time to get back into it properly, instead of a half-hearted couple times a week. I'm pescatarian too which makes it a little harder. Going to buy a ton of food tomorrow from sainsburies, fish, fish, fish. I'm always happy to talk about gym/working out stuff.

    The sun continues to shine, which makes grinding a lot harder, not to mention the games loading much slower. To add to this my room is like an oven - I need to invest in a fan. Great day today, ran really good in the DYMs. I've only been playing the £5.50s recently, simply because the £11s aren't running as often as I'd like, and I don't fancy playing 8 £5.50s and 2 £11s. 


    Resorted to playing cash for a little bit (10 minutes is all I could stand.. limp, limp, limp, 6x bb raise, call, call, call), Had a hand that made me want to puke. It was so close on the river, just because the board was so polorised. Made worse by the fact I had no notes/history with villian. See what you think anyway.

    Hand isn't posting.. again. Will have to write out.

    10p/20p blinds

    Folds to button who raises to 80p
    I'm in sb with AJ and flat 
    bb calls 
    (pot is £2.40)

    FLOP: J 5 9 (rainbow)
    checks to button who bets £1.80
    I call
    bb folds
    (pot is £6)

    TURN: 5 (completes rainbow board)
    checks to button who bets £4.50
    I call

    RIVER: 7 

    Final board: J 5 9 5 7 rainbow
    I check
    Villian shoves (£12.33 for me to call) 
    I (????)

    --

    patwalshh
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : I don't really follow the NFL that much, but if I had to pick it'd be Arizona. How about you?
    Posted by patwalshh
    Oakland Raiders here :)
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : Oakland Raiders here :)
    Posted by EvilPingu
    Ahh nice, I don't really follow it. If you played AF, what position would you play?

    --

    Month round up coming Friday, hope I run good between now and then!
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : Ahh nice, I don't really follow it. If you played AF, what position would you play? -- Month round up coming Friday, hope I run good between now and then!
    Posted by patwalshh
    Never thought about it before - I've put on a few pounds recently so I'd probably have to be an offensive lineman... Sigh.
  • edited May 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : Never thought about it before - I've put on a few pounds recently so I'd probably have to be an offensive lineman... Sigh.
    Posted by EvilPingu
    Haha, you could be a linebacker like me I'm sure?
  • edited June 2012
    End of May Review

    --

    May is over - which also signifies the end of my University exams. A slightly teedious, but successful month nonetheless. I didn't get as much volume in as I'd have liked, but that's to be expected with exams and the nice weather.


    According to sharkscope I played a total of 631 £5.50 Double or Nothing's - Averaging a very fair 7.2% roi. 

    This month was the best yet, as I finally ran good in the £11s! Up to May, I'd played over 450 games of £11 DYMs and had an ROI of just 2.5%. I felt I was running horribly at them, I was also shoving too light which the regs were snapping off. I made a couple adjustments. Judging by the results, made a huge difference. It doesn't hurt when you run like God in the vital pots either. 

    According to Sharkscope I played 122 £11 DYMs at an average ROI of 23.7% - Giving me an average ROI of 7.4% over 525 games. Just goes to show that variance can be just as rewarding, as it is troublesome. 


    Overal graph is below. I have obviously excluded the £110 tournament that I won my entry into free. 


    In May I also earnt 5671 poker points - valued at £102.08. Which is always a nice bonus.

    --

    June Goals - I'm typically not one to set Poker goals, however I will set a couple:

    - 8% Average ROI in DYMs (7.5% and above counts)
    - At least 6000 Poker points
    - More stratergy/hand review on various forums
    - Buy the 'mental game of poker' by Jared Tendler
    - Crush HU SNGs/Tournaments

    Non-Poker goals

    - Continue to go to the gym 4-5 times a week
    - Find job (lol)

    --

    1st June


    I had my last exam this morning from 9-11. Although it feels like a relief to finish my exams, it hasn't sunk in yet. Played a couple short sessions today. But as for this evening/tonight, I'm going to celebrate the end of exams. 

    Actually won a £50gtd Velocity £3.30 rebuy, which was nice. Also ran seriously good over a few £5.50 DYMs. Average ROI of 94.2%, even if it is over 19 games haha. 


    On a sidenote, I've actually won my way into the £52.50 HU Shuffle Tournament on Saturday night from a £1 satellite. (although it took me like 7 attempts haha). I'm looking forward to this tournament, as I believe I'm strong at HU SNGs. I won a couple HU shuffle tournaments this month (I think they were both on the same day) and cashed in a few others. So wish me rungood.

    Best of luck to everyone in June. 

    --

    patwalshh


  • edited June 2012
    Feel free to post any June goals you have in this thread/questions. 
  • edited June 2012

    Great Diary Pat.

    I'm on the £5 DYM's 2 - My Jun target is to hit 30k C4P's, c how far I can get.

    Also want2go gym and eat more healthy, will need to up my discipline massively to achieve these goals!

    I've sent u a PM.
  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    I appreciate your personal input Steve, and I can't begin to contemplate how hard it must be to lose a loved one. I feel that my comments are being taken out of proportion, mainly because I'm basing this as a blog about my 'poker journey' and not as a life blog. I do not set myself cash targets, whether that be daily, weekly or even monthly. Nor do I get too disheartened about having losing days. As of now, I'm at university studying Business. As well as my studies, I play American Football. Like any student, I socialise with friends and go on frequent nights out. I previously chose to share my blog with one of my flatmates. I fully feel that I have a well balanced life, although I can understand how it may appear to be centered around poker - as this is a Poker blog. I fully intent for Poker to be a means to an end. Once again, thank you for your comments, and I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you continue to follow my progress. Best of luck at the tables. -- Patwalshh
    Posted by patwalshh
    Hi Pat,

    I'm so pleased that everything is going so well for you and you seem to have a level-headed approach. I'm made up for you. I only wanted to highlight an impression i had of you in your initial posts. I hope you don't think i was sticking my nose in where i shouldn't. It's just that when something like that happens to your family you don't want it to happen to anyone else's. So, i'm really chuffed that things are going so well.

    Just got up to date with your latest thread....isn't it good to have graphs with a positive gradient?

    All the best...run well...
  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey:
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey : Hi Pat, I'm so pleased that everything is going so well for you and you seem to have a level-headed approach. I'm made up for you. I only wanted to highlight an impression i had of you in your initial posts. I hope you don't think i was sticking my nose in where i shouldn't. It's just that when something like that happens to your family you don't want it to happen to anyone else's. So, i'm really chuffed that things are going so well. Just got up to date with your latest thread....isn't it good to have graphs with a positive gradient? All the best...run well...
    Posted by profman15
    I don't think you were sticking your nose in at all. You were offering personal advice based on life experience, and that means a lot. At the end of the day I'm only 19 years old. I have so many things to learn, and ways to develop. Your comments are appreciated.

    On a side note, it feels like it took an eternity for my graphs to get the way they are haha. 

    All the best

    patwalshh
  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey (Including Backstory/Updates) [NOW WITH MAY ROUNDUP/JUNE GOALS]:
    Great Diary Pat. I'm on the £5 DYM's 2 - My Jun target is to hit 30k C4P's, c how far I can get. Also want2go gym and eat more healthy, will need to up my discipline massively to achieve these goals! I've sent u a PM.
    Posted by JingleMa
    30,000 cash for points is a lot! Did you make priority club last month? best of luck
  • edited June 2012
    nice going Pat....
    "i,m so gell"  lol
    all the hard work you have been putting in is paying off nicely,
    keep it going m8.

    as a matter of interest,
    i used to walk past this jewellers shop in Exmouth quite regullarly,
    saw a seiko watch that i really liked the look of.
    had 2 go in eventually to have a look at it,
    price;£275
    "i.ll give you £250 cash right now 4 it" i said.
    "i can,t do that"said the assistant,
    "come back tomorrow and see the owner" she said.
    so i did,she said yes,so that was it,
    bought it there and then.
    "not quite a rolex,but i love it".

    (*  *)
       "
       ^
    dev
  • edited June 2012
    Good playing with you other day pat. (even though you bluffed me)

    Enjoying the diary keep it up, seems like youve had a good month.

    Best of luck at the tables.
  • edited June 2012
    i think your target ROI is probably too high for DYMs. im pretty sure that 3% roi is pretty good over a big sample of hands, and that 5%+ is absolutely crushing. (could be wrong dont think ive played more than 3 dym's before) glgl though
  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey (Including Backstory/Updates) [NOW WITH MAY ROUNDUP/JUNE GOALS]:
    nice going Pat.... "i,m so gell"  lol all the hard work you have been putting in is paying off nicely, keep it going m8. as a matter of interest, i used to walk past this jewellers shop in Exmouth quite regullarly, saw a seiko watch that i really liked the look of. had 2 go in eventually to have a look at it, price;£275 "i.ll give you £250 cash right now 4 it" i said. "i can,t do that"said the assistant, "come back tomorrow and see the owner" she said. so i did,she said yes,so that was it, bought it there and then. "not quite a rolex,but i love it". (*  *)    "    ^ dev
    Posted by devonfish5
    Thanks a lot devon, always a pleasure. I used to go to college in Exeter, small world ha

    Nice story about the watch, maybe if I go in with £550 I can buy a Rolex for cash ;)


  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey (Including Backstory/Updates) [NOW WITH MAY ROUNDUP/JUNE GOALS]:
    Good playing with you other day pat. (even though you bluffed me) Enjoying the diary keep it up, seems like youve had a good month. Best of luck at the tables.
    Posted by BigHawk89
    Nice playing with you too hawk. Are you sure you don't want to coach me for cash haha?



    LOL_Raise: I think its a very high ROI for DONs. But over like 3,000 £5.50 DYMs I think I've got a 7% roi or something like that.
  • edited June 2012


    Hi Pat,

    Hope all is still gud.

    Yeah, I think 30k might be a little optimistic - 20k should def be on though - I've made Priority every month since Dec.

    I've sent u a PM.
  • edited June 2012
    Hey guys. At the start of the month I like to take a couple days off from poker to unwind. Last Friday I also had my last uni exam, so I decided to come home on the Saturday for the 4 day weekend. Crazy times ensued. Was lucky enough to catch up with some friends that I hadn't seen in months. To cut it short, the last 4 days have comprised of:

    - Meeting up with friends from home
    - Copious amounts of alcohol
    - BBQ/pool party at friend's mansion
    - 3am Subs
    - Night in Bristol
    - Shopping
    - Eating at the largest buffet in Europe
    - 4am casino trip

    My Skypoker gear has arrived, which makes the fact that I'll be playing in the GUKPT superdeepstack next month more of a reality. To get some practice in, I've decided to play a local live MTT at my nearest casino tonight which I'm looking forward to.

    I feel refreshed, and ready to get back to the grind tomomorrow. I hope everyone's had a great bank holiday weekend.

    --

    patwalshh
  • edited June 2012

    Welcome back, sounds like you've had a pretty full-on break!

    Yeah, it's great when the gear arrives - shame there isn't more variety but watev.

    Which tournie are Sky buying u in2?

    I'm due to play GUKPT Coventry in Aug as it was the only one Sky really offered, but I'd be tempted to change it if I can.

    Also, what is the largest buffet in Europe?
  • edited June 2012
    I've spent the last 2 hours trying to convey my thoughts into a post but after struggling miserably I've decided just to post today's results and attempt a more detailed post tomorrow. 

    --

    All in all it feels good to be back on the grind after having a few days away. I've been lucky enough to have a great couple of sessions (the first of the month and today).

    According to Sharkscope, I only played 35 games. But having an average ROI of 29.9% made for solid results.  



    Two funny hands which happened under 10 minutes between each other:




    --

    patwalshh
  • edited June 2012
    In Response to Re: Patwalshh - My Ongoing Journey (Including Backstory/Updates) [NOW WITH MAY ROUNDUP/JUNE GOALS]:
    Welcome back, sounds like you've had a pretty full-on break! Yeah, it's great when the gear arrives - shame there isn't more variety but watev. Which tournie are Sky buying u in2? I'm due to play GUKPT Coventry in Aug as it was the only one Sky really offered, but I'd be tempted to change it if I can. Also, what is the largest buffet in Europe?
    Posted by JingleMa
    I was hoping to rest up a little, but that didn't really happen lol. 

    The gear arriving was pretty cool. I couldn't help but wear it at the casino for an MTT haa. I'm playing the GUKPT plymouth because it's closer to where I'll be living. And with the leftover, I'll be playing SPT final at nottingham. How have you done in the past with the big tournaments? And how did you find the standard of the players? 

    The biggest buffet in Europe (I think Europe anyway), is a place called 'za za bazaar' in Bristol. It's literally just a massive place, that holds up to 700 people! Pretty insane really.
  • edited June 2012

    Blimey. http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2012/jan/27/za-za-bazaar-bristol-restaurant

    Curry, Pizza & Chinese all under one roof, nice.

    I played UKOPS1 and GUKPT Walsall which I bubbled.

    Don't worry about the standard, most live players don't understand stack sizes/bet sizing and station A LOT.

    Some live tells are really obv2 - if they look relaxed and happy, it's cos they've got it!

    Just take your time and pick your spots - u'll do great.

    I've sent u PM.
  • edited June 2012
    Poker wise, some days are a walk in the park. Everything seems to go your way, your QQ holds up against AQ, your AK beats A6 and your 1010 holds up against JQ. Today was not one of those days. However I realise that I've been running way above my expected ROI during the last few sessions. The only way I can (to some extent) control the variance in the long run is to play to the best of my abilitiy, not tilt and play as many games as I can. 

    Overall a frustrating but eventually rewarding day. I was shocked to see that I hit my 'expected' ROI over the number of games I played: According to sharkscope, 61 games, +$38.54


    On a sidenote - I'm avoiding the £11s at the moment, as everytime I open the lobby they're filled with too many regs for my liking and I'm happy with the reduced variance of the £5s. 

    The live MTT the other day was good practice. Although I didn't really get anything going. Overall I feel that my live reads are sharp, and that I'm making less mistakes in comparison to online MTTs - As I have the time to think about every decision and plan ahead in the hand. I'm really excited about the GUKPT next month and I just want to crush it. At this moment, the money is secondary to me. I just want to show everyone, what I know, I'm capable of. 

    Best of luck 

    -- 

    patwalshh
  • edited June 2012
    I can't complain at all how thing's have been progressing the past few days. I'm still running pretty good in the DYMs. Averaging around 15% ROI at the moment, so definitely running above my expected winrate. 

    According to sharkscope I played 36 DYMs today +$61.84
    With the intention of gaining some post flop experience and diversifying my game, I've been taking a stab at multi-tabling 20nl 6max cash. Good results so far. If I could make the transition from DYMs to cash I probably would. But I struggle with putting in the volume cash wise. When I load a few DYMs, I'm stuck with them for the next 30-40 minutes, but obviously with cash you can leave when you want. 

    Estimating some players ranges in cash can be like taking a shot in the dark. Focusing on the weaker players: 

    So many overplay their hands - betting 2nd pair for value on a wet board, limp calling A5 and calling down on a dry A board.

    But then you get the opposite end of the spectrum. Some check the nuts the whole way through. My favourite of all, are the players that limp call 74 and call down on an AK4xx board. But then you have the players that limp massive pairs or min raise KK and then can't get away from it on an JJxxx board, when you can't help but scream strength. My cash game definitely needs work though. From bet sizing to 3 bet ranges etc.

    Here's a couple hands from earlier

    Biggest pot of the day:


    Opponent calling ridiculously light:


    Funny (not) hand from an £11 DYM. I was literally in disbelief when I saw what he had:


    --

    patwalshh

  • edited June 2012
    Hey pat

    Just been reading your diary and it's a very good read.

    This month ive started to play £5 dym to build my bankroll im not doing to bad at them, think my roi is 16% but with a very very small sample size of 28 games lol. Im only playing 2 tables at a time tho i might increase that when i get more settled with playing them and getting to know who the regs are.
    We were on a couple of tables together earlier, and you took me out in one when my A6s lost to your pocket 6s (i should of folded pre flop).

    Anyway good luck at GUKPT Plymouth, i live in plymouth and have only played one tourney in the casino and came 3rd so hopefully you can beat that and take it down.

    Keep up the good work.

    Jamie  
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